Happy HORSE

At last, I already saw a "happy horse". Last Thursday, one of my co-trainees invited us to have some fun in his dorm(meaning inuman hehe) because he couldn't think of anything to do and so he wanted us to accompany him.

And so that was my first time to see a happy horse bottle. It was really smiling. The face of the horse was fat and red is the color of the back of the bottle.

I got drunk easily. As usual, the reactions were the same such as palpitations, redness and difficulty of breathing. And I even vomitted, the worst of it is that I vomitted at the side of the road (kahiya talaga!). It was surprising that I got home in my condition. And when I got home, I vomitted again at our restroom not being noticed by my parents.

Going home alone in this condition was really scary, you may not know what will happen and so I won't drink again. I won't drink when I don't have a company to take me home.hehe...

I really want to drink, to experience all kinds of beverages but those didn't like me.. =)

On The Spot Decision

It's really hard to choose between two things especially if it needs an immediate decision, one may doubt if the decision made is right or wrong like in this situation:

Last Tuesday, there was a cesarean case in the DR area, the baby was a pre-term,he was really small and his heart rate was below the normal range. The doctor told the team that the baby needs to be in the intensive care unit with all the equipments needed such as the oxygen and other stuffs but the doctor didn't give any assurance that the baby will survive. They talked to the father about the condition of his child, and the father decided not to continue with all the process. How sad that he gave up on his child.

That time, I'm thinking about the reasons why the father chosed to give up the child, first one is that there is no assurance, second is the expenses-it costs a lot of money, and then if the baby will survive, later on we may not know if there will be complications as he grow older...At the other side of my mind, if there is a mean, the father should not give up. He doesn't have the right to give up the life of the child without even fighting,without even trying..

I can't blame the father about his decision, maybe for him that's the best for both of them-the parents and the child. Maybe for the father, it is the right decision at that time.

Whoaaa, it's hard to make decisions especially when you have to choose between the two..

How about you, If you were in his situation, and you should decide right at that moment, will you go or not? will you fight (even if there is no assurance) or will you give up?

-> It can also be apply in LOVE..hehe LOL LOL LOL LOLZ

SoMeone's Waiting FoR YoU

When I heard this song last night, I remembered my elementary days..As far a I could remember,we sang it during those days... =)

Be brave little one.
Make a wish for each sad little tear.
Hold your head up though no one is near
Someone's waiting for you.
Don't cry little one.
There'll be a smile where a frown use to be
You'll be part of the love that you see.
Someone's waiting for you.
Always keep a little prayer in your pocket
and you're sure to see the light.
Soon there'll be joy and happiness
and your little world will be bright
Have faith little one
'Til your hopes and your wishes come true.
You must try to be brave little one.
Someone's waiting to love you

It's more applicable in my life right now hehe...Lolz...

PM ShiFt @ OR

Our first week duty at the operating room was finished, and although it was quite benign because we only had one operation per day, it was a fun experience because I was able to be a scrub nurse in one of the operation, it was thyroidectomy. At first,I was really scared(ganun talaga!), scared to do everything, scared to commit a mistake..but then I did have some mistakes. I even gave the wrong instruments, instead of thumb forcep,I gave a clamp, then instead of tie, I gave him the knife(bingi talaga). Overall, I did a nice job, even if there were mistakes..All I know is that I'd done my part.

When we had nothing to do, roaming around the area, storytelling, showbiz talks,picture taking and eating were the things that we usually do.

One thing I've learned is that you should face your fears. I really like to be a part of the team in the operating room. I like to experience the things that a scrubnurse or the circulating nurse usually do but there is that fear inside of me especially in maintaining sterility. And when it was my turn to be a scrubnurse at that time, the only words I told myself was "face your fears". What I was thinking at that time is that I like to experience it so I have to face it.I have to overcome my fear..

"When you want, like or feel something but you are afraid to try, feel and experience that thing, afraid of the outcome that you might get. You have to face all your fears, you'll never know the result if you dont face it." (sometimes it's easier said than done lolz)...

All About LOVE

* Why do we LOVE? It's reassuring yet scary to think that we're ready to do everything, we're willing to give everything for love.

* The heart is strong. Even if it gets hurt, it heals, it LOVES again.

* They say it's human nature to MOVE ON.

* Everyone gets hurt and the world has no obligation to protect you. Not because you're good or kind-hearted, you're going to be spared from pain,from being left behnd or from betrayal. But still man chooses to love. You Choose it over and over again because if you don't, it's as if you chose not to live.

*Sometimes you have to see pain, hold it, so you can let it go, so it will disappear.

*Put all your sorrows, let them go and start again. Allow yourself to get hurt because you can fight back. The point is you LIVE and KNOW that you loved and you've been loved.

*Even if you have no assurance that your story will end with "I love you" and "happily ever after", don't afraid to love.

-taken from the movie "All About Love"

FALL IN LOVE, FEEL LOVE, STAY IN LOVE!!! =)

08-08-08 PaRaDe oF SoNGs

What a day! It was a weird 08-08-08 day for me. There were songs I heard that hit me (tagos sa puso), it was really a parade of songs,and the first one in my list was "A Million Miles Away"(he's really far away from me that I can't reach him anymore. Next was "We're Starting All Over Again", I heard this twice and how I wish that the song will fit me in time. Then I also heard the song "I Love You More than You'll Ever Know", a memorable song, a a very short dance with someone(5 seconds I think hehe). Then the last one was "Only Hope", one of the songs he sang before.

I know I can't help thinking what could this whole thing means. Eventhough I'm starting to focus myself in my career, still, there are things, events that happen and again, my mind will all goes back to him.

ToXiC WeeK "BUT"

First week of duty as a nurse trainee and it was a toxic one. Why? Because I felt like I'm starting all over again. After a year of being a certified "TAM" (tambay),now I'm having my first training at FEU hospital. It was scary because license is at risk (hehe) so one should really be careful when it comes to admitting a patient, preparing and giving medications,monitoring input and outputs, carrying out orders, and documenting all you've done in the charts. It was really tiring because in the ward (pedia ward) which I was assigned, there were many patients admitted that it could reach up a total of 23.

Even if my first week was so tiring, I got happy for 2 days because of someone I met in the ward. I admired him because he likes kids. Whenever the mother of the child was away, he was the one taking care and entertaining the child, even if they were not relatives and they only met at the ward. And then when I was sitting at the station doing my chartings, they went beside me and I was surprised because he looked at my ID to see my name and he said that the next time he will be in the ward, he hoped that I will have my MAN already (hehe). Another instance was when I went to my patient, he always had that smile for me. Yesterday was my last day on that ward and it was also his last day because his relative who was admitted was also for discharge on that day. How sad..lolz!

Anyway, what i realized was that I liked the guy because of the fact that he likes kids, and also he looks like my crush on pinoy dream academy, he looks like CHIVAS!! hehe..

It was a tiring and toxic week BUT fun because of that someone...

Million Miles Away

by Nikki Gil

I’d love to make you mine
‘Cause it’s the only way to hold you
In my wild imagination
Still don’t know how
To grab a chance and spend some time
In just a simple conversation

Refrain:
Just give it a try
Though I’m like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it’s true
Although I know, I know that it’s impossible to do
‘Cause you’re a star
People love you as you are
You’re a million miles away from me

Wished that you were here
‘Cause it’s illusions every time you’re close to me
And sing my love songs
And it’s the only way
I could tell the world I love you
Although you’re a million miles away

Refrain:
Just give it a try
Though I’m like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it’s true
Although I know, I know that it’s impossible to do
‘Cause you’re a star
You’re a star
You’re a star

(Instrumental)

Refrain:
Just give it a try
Though I’m like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it’s true
Although I know, I know that it’s impossible to do
‘Cause you’re a star
You’re a star
You’re a star
Million miles away from me…