milkypeach

Nature Lover

2009-06-02T21:40:00.004+08:00

Goodbye

2009-02-05T22:07:00.000+08:00

Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You've got yout life
I've got mine
But you I seem to care about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I'm left asking
Where has all the time gone
Feel left alone somehow
Growing up, getting older
I don't want to hear those words tonight
Maybe it's not the end for us
Don't say anything tonight
If you're going to say goodbye...

>so cute haha

Past

2009-02-05T21:50:00.000+08:00

you lit up my life
you filled my emptiness inside
you changed everything in me
simply, i love you more than
anything ever could be

you never know how sweet your voice is
your touch that give me such chill
i cant explain how much you mean to me
truly, i love you deeply

you said I'm everything to you
that I'm so special in ways i never knew
but why did you left me that quick?
never knowing what the real reason is.

you said it's over
that things really wont go our way
never!
but why now?
when you know you did occupy
a lot in my heart

now you left me scar
never even giving me the reason
why our love ended that quick
will you expect me to forget you in just a wink?
am i not special anymore?
where are your words before?
that you love me so much more

im so down right now
that i thought
how could someone said he loves me
but left me all quickly
tell me, what's your reason really?
for me to understand fully,
THAT YOU DONT ANYMORE LOVE ME.

>Just got it somewhere, i like the message of it hehe

hEArt

2009-01-18T22:04:00.002+08:00

Someone has wisely said:
"The heart is a fertile place.. anything planted there will grow for sure.. whether LOVE or HATRED.."

waaaaaaah I can't think of anything to post in this blog..hehe

ALL I want For Christmas

2008-12-14T21:13:00.002+08:00

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is...
You

I don't want a lot for Christmas
There's just one thing I need
I don't care about the presents
Underneath the Christmas tree
I don't need to hang my stocking
There upon the fireplace
Santa Claus won't make me happy
With a toy on Christmas day
I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
All I want for Christmas is you
You baby

I won't ask for much this Christmas
I don't even wish for snow
I'm just gonna keep on waiting
Underneath the mistletoe
I won't make a list and send it
To the North Pole for Saint Nick
I won't even stay awake to
Hear those magic reindeers click
'Cause I just want you here tonight
Holding on to me so tight
What more can I do
Baby all I want for Christmas is you
Ooh baby
All the lights are shining
So brightly everywhere
And the sound of children's
Laughter fills the air
And everyone is singing
I hear those sleigh bells ringing
Santa won't you bring me the one I really need
Won't you please bring my baby to me...

Oh I don't want a lot for Christmas
This is all I'm asking for
I just want to see my baby
Standing right outside my door
Oh I just want you for my own
More than you could ever know
Make my wish come true
Baby all I want for Christmas is...
You

All I want for Christmas is you... baby

>I don't want a baby lolz...I can't think of any topic to post in this blog,so I just post a lyrics of my favorite song for Christmas..which is All I want for Christmas, but this year, I don't know who or what I want for this season,hehe...

Just A Quote

2008-11-05T18:00:00.002+08:00

Sometimes, you just have to put a period on something that has to end, and not just settle on a comma. Why? Coz time will come,you'll realize that it's nicer to see a complete sentence,rather than seeing a phrase that's completely hanging and doesn't even make any sense.

StiLL PuReLy Innocent

2008-10-02T19:43:00.004+08:00

You Are 65% Pure

You're pretty pure, and you have no plans on changing that.

You do have a devilish side though... and it will probably get the better of you.

The 100 Question Purity Test

Just got this from one of my friends. I enjoyed the test. Now I know that I'm still pure- pure as white..still purely innocent!!!

Somehow you’ll remember

2008-09-25T19:32:00.000+08:00

Somehow you’ll remember
The time we first encounter
We had lots of memories together
But they were all gone forever

Somehow you’ll remember
Simple things you used to do
From the songs you played
And from the words you once shared

Somehow you’ll remember
Weird moments I’ve done for you
They were all new
So that it wont make you feel blue

We might be miles away
Go on our separate ways
Time will pass
Our lives will eventually change

But,somehow you’ll remember us
That started with a simple “hi”
ended with a painful “goodbye”
And we’ll be apart from each other FOREVER.

Absent on Duty

2008-09-06T14:55:00.002+08:00

Yesterday,I didn't go on duty because I was convinced by my co-trainee not to go. Instead of facing the oldy staff nurses on pm shift, the three of us were absent,the two of us just played badminton together with the OR staff nurses and our other co-trainee which was assigned in the ER. And the other one who was so sure that she would go on a duty just went out on a date. And so,the ICU/CCU area didn't have trainees yesterday. I wonder what would the staff nurses were thinking at that time. hehe..

Anyway, I enjoyed the day. It has been a long time since I played badminton and my body's aching huhu.. I just hope that the badminton schedule with my close friend (as in my friend,neighborhood,HS classmate batchmate,college classmate batchmate) will come to a reality and not only on SKETCH. hehe

Happy HORSE

2008-08-31T10:51:00.002+08:00

At last, I already saw a "happy horse". Last Thursday, one of my co-trainees invited us to have some fun in his dorm(meaning inuman hehe) because he couldn't think of anything to do and so he wanted us to accompany him.

And so that was my first time to see a happy horse bottle. It was really smiling. The face of the horse was fat and red is the color of the back of the bottle.

I got drunk easily. As usual, the reactions were the same such as palpitations, redness and difficulty of breathing. And I even vomitted, the worst of it is that I vomitted at the side of the road (kahiya talaga!). It was surprising that I got home in my condition. And when I got home, I vomitted again at our restroom not being noticed by my parents.

Going home alone in this condition was really scary, you may not know what will happen and so I won't drink again. I won't drink when I don't have a company to take me home.hehe...

I really want to drink, to experience all kinds of beverages but those didn't like me.. =)

On The Spot Decision

2008-08-29T21:20:00.003+08:00

It's really hard to choose between two things especially if it needs an immediate decision, one may doubt if the decision made is right or wrong like in this situation:

Last Tuesday, there was a cesarean case in the DR area, the baby was a pre-term,he was really small and his heart rate was below the normal range. The doctor told the team that the baby needs to be in the intensive care unit with all the equipments needed such as the oxygen and other stuffs but the doctor didn't give any assurance that the baby will survive. They talked to the father about the condition of his child, and the father decided not to continue with all the process. How sad that he gave up on his child.

That time, I'm thinking about the reasons why the father chosed to give up the child, first one is that there is no assurance, second is the expenses-it costs a lot of money, and then if the baby will survive, later on we may not know if there will be complications as he grow older...At the other side of my mind, if there is a mean, the father should not give up. He doesn't have the right to give up the life of the child without even fighting,without even trying..

I can't blame the father about his decision, maybe for him that's the best for both of them-the parents and the child. Maybe for the father, it is the right decision at that time.

Whoaaa, it's hard to make decisions especially when you have to choose between the two..

How about you, If you were in his situation, and you should decide right at that moment, will you go or not? will you fight (even if there is no assurance) or will you give up?

-> It can also be apply in LOVE..hehe LOL LOL LOL LOLZ

SoMeone's Waiting FoR YoU

2008-08-18T11:08:00.003+08:00

When I heard this song last night, I remembered my elementary days..As far a I could remember,we sang it during those days... =)

Be brave little one.
Make a wish for each sad little tear.
Hold your head up though no one is near
Someone's waiting for you.
Don't cry little one.
There'll be a smile where a frown use to be
You'll be part of the love that you see.
Someone's waiting for you.
Always keep a little prayer in your pocket
and you're sure to see the light.
Soon there'll be joy and happiness
and your little world will be bright
Have faith little one
'Til your hopes and your wishes come true.
You must try to be brave little one.
Someone's waiting to love you

It's more applicable in my life right now hehe...Lolz...

PM ShiFt @ OR

2008-08-16T10:14:00.002+08:00

Our first week duty at the operating room was finished, and although it was quite benign because we only had one operation per day, it was a fun experience because I was able to be a scrub nurse in one of the operation, it was thyroidectomy. At first,I was really scared(ganun talaga!), scared to do everything, scared to commit a mistake..but then I did have some mistakes. I even gave the wrong instruments, instead of thumb forcep,I gave a clamp, then instead of tie, I gave him the knife(bingi talaga). Overall, I did a nice job, even if there were mistakes..All I know is that I'd done my part.

When we had nothing to do, roaming around the area, storytelling, showbiz talks,picture taking and eating were the things that we usually do.

One thing I've learned is that you should face your fears. I really like to be a part of the team in the operating room. I like to experience the things that a scrubnurse or the circulating nurse usually do but there is that fear inside of me especially in maintaining sterility. And when it was my turn to be a scrubnurse at that time, the only words I told myself was "face your fears". What I was thinking at that time is that I like to experience it so I have to face it.I have to overcome my fear..

"When you want, like or feel something but you are afraid to try, feel and experience that thing, afraid of the outcome that you might get. You have to face all your fears, you'll never know the result if you dont face it." (sometimes it's easier said than done lolz)...

All About LOVE

2008-08-10T10:55:00.005+08:00

* Why do we LOVE? It's reassuring yet scary to think that we're ready to do everything, we're willing to give everything for love.

* The heart is strong. Even if it gets hurt, it heals, it LOVES again.

* They say it's human nature to MOVE ON.

* Everyone gets hurt and the world has no obligation to protect you. Not because you're good or kind-hearted, you're going to be spared from pain,from being left behnd or from betrayal. But still man chooses to love. You Choose it over and over again because if you don't, it's as if you chose not to live.

*Sometimes you have to see pain, hold it, so you can let it go, so it will disappear.

*Put all your sorrows, let them go and start again. Allow yourself to get hurt because you can fight back. The point is you LIVE and KNOW that you loved and you've been loved.

*Even if you have no assurance that your story will end with "I love you" and "happily ever after", don't afraid to love.

-taken from the movie "All About Love"

FALL IN LOVE, FEEL LOVE, STAY IN LOVE!!! =)

08-08-08 PaRaDe oF SoNGs

2008-08-08T23:01:00.002+08:00

What a day! It was a weird 08-08-08 day for me. There were songs I heard that hit me (tagos sa puso), it was really a parade of songs,and the first one in my list was "A Million Miles Away"(he's really far away from me that I can't reach him anymore. Next was "We're Starting All Over Again", I heard this twice and how I wish that the song will fit me in time. Then I also heard the song "I Love You More than You'll Ever Know", a memorable song, a a very short dance with someone(5 seconds I think hehe). Then the last one was "Only Hope", one of the songs he sang before.

I know I can't help thinking what could this whole thing means. Eventhough I'm starting to focus myself in my career, still, there are things, events that happen and again, my mind will all goes back to him.

ToXiC WeeK "BUT"

2008-08-02T13:32:00.004+08:00

First week of duty as a nurse trainee and it was a toxic one. Why? Because I felt like I'm starting all over again. After a year of being a certified "TAM" (tambay),now I'm having my first training at FEU hospital. It was scary because license is at risk (hehe) so one should really be careful when it comes to admitting a patient, preparing and giving medications,monitoring input and outputs, carrying out orders, and documenting all you've done in the charts. It was really tiring because in the ward (pedia ward) which I was assigned, there were many patients admitted that it could reach up a total of 23.

Even if my first week was so tiring, I got happy for 2 days because of someone I met in the ward. I admired him because he likes kids. Whenever the mother of the child was away, he was the one taking care and entertaining the child, even if they were not relatives and they only met at the ward. And then when I was sitting at the station doing my chartings, they went beside me and I was surprised because he looked at my ID to see my name and he said that the next time he will be in the ward, he hoped that I will have my MAN already (hehe). Another instance was when I went to my patient, he always had that smile for me. Yesterday was my last day on that ward and it was also his last day because his relative who was admitted was also for discharge on that day. How sad..lolz!

Anyway, what i realized was that I liked the guy because of the fact that he likes kids, and also he looks like my crush on pinoy dream academy, he looks like CHIVAS!! hehe..

It was a tiring and toxic week BUT fun because of that someone...

Million Miles Away

2008-08-01T22:56:00.004+08:00

by Nikki Gil

I’d love to make you mine
‘Cause it’s the only way to hold you
In my wild imagination
Still don’t know how
To grab a chance and spend some time
In just a simple conversation

Refrain:
Just give it a try
Though I’m like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it’s true
Although I know, I know that it’s impossible to do
‘Cause you’re a star
People love you as you are
You’re a million miles away from me

Wished that you were here
‘Cause it’s illusions every time you’re close to me
And sing my love songs
And it’s the only way
I could tell the world I love you
Although you’re a million miles away

Refrain:
Just give it a try
Though I’m like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it’s true
Although I know, I know that it’s impossible to do
‘Cause you’re a star
You’re a star
You’re a star

(Instrumental)

Refrain:
Just give it a try
Though I’m like chasing rainbows in the sky
I wanna hold you in my dreams
And make believe that it’s true
Although I know, I know that it’s impossible to do
‘Cause you’re a star
You’re a star
You’re a star
Million miles away from me…

SToRM SiGNaLS

2008-07-27T17:18:00.003+08:00

It is raining today, I thought that there's no storm but to my surprise, there is really a storm, and I didn't expect that its name is connected again to someone. I even noticed that this day was full of memories, from the time I went to church up to the name of the storm. And the storm (its name) signals everything- the memories and the person.

What's the meaning of these events??!! Do they really mean anything?? Or is it just me thinking, imagining and putting meaning with those unexpected things?!

Have you ever been inLOVE?

2008-07-27T12:35:00.002+08:00

It's Sunday so I went to church this morning. And I didn't expect that the homily would hit me (tagos talaga!). The priest asked, "have you all ever been inlove?". There were some people who raised their hands but I didn't, not that I'd never been. I just wanted to keep it all to myself. Then he stated the experiences and emotions of a person inlove. I couldn't help reminiscing the old days. I got teary-eyed because I miss those days especially the person.

He was right when he said that when you are inlove, you will give everything to have that person. One will also sacrifice for the sake of another, for the sake of one's happiness even if it means that it will hurt you.

That's LOVE, whether you like it or not, it will come in your way at the time when you least expected and only you, YOURSElF will be the one to decide if you will go or not, if you will take the risk or if you are ready to sacrfice everything for LOVE.

RolleR CoasteR Ride

2008-07-26T23:38:00.003+08:00

It happened again, and I really really hate on what's happening. I got scared that I can't even tell it to my family. I really thought that after I took my meds, it will all goes back to normal but it wasn't. Worst of all, that motion sickness relapsed. I don't like the feeling, as if I am on a roller coaster ride and I feel that as if I am falling, can't hardly breathe and I feel that any moment, there will be total darkness!

Today, it already happened for 3 times and I really don't know what to do. My training will start on Monday and I still have this motion sickness, how I wish it won't happen when I already have a duty in the hospital.

I know that sometimes,I want to be sick so that someone will take care of me. But for now, oh please, I don't want, because I'm having a training. I will be more happy if the one who goes back, the one who relapse is he and not this sickness. I know that if that thing happens, I am on a roller coaster ride again, and for sure I will going to enjoy that ride. =)

ALL About the BLOG

2008-07-20T22:01:00.006+08:00

Whoaaa, I really have a hard time thinking what will be my first entry in my new blog. So to begin with, I decided to introduce my blog to everyone. =)

In my life, there are things that come and go in my way but still they add meaning into my life, they helped me to grow and to be who I am now and just like this blog, it contains pictures,name or any other things that convey meanings into my life.

I wanna share you some of them. The first one: my names which are frozenpeach and milkypeach. The word peach comes from my ym account and it is also a name of the 2cartoon characters named "wedding peach" and "sailormoon". Frozen because before, I am really cold to people and also because I was hurt before and I turned myself into an ice. Milky because that was what my friend used to call me and also it became more meaningful that it was a part of a song, a song that was made for me.

The next one is the color which is yellow (yellow yan!). That is really my favorite color.

And the last one is the template itself with words such as missing you. I really miss that someone, i really don't know what to do. Eventhough, I already told that I will focus myself into something, still, I can't get that someone out of my mind. All I can do is just to think, thinking what is that someone doing now, what do that someone feels, what is the plan of that someone...

So that's it, this is what my blog means... =)